When i lay down on my bed in the middle of the night, trying to catch a wink before daybreak shines, i start to think back......
It has been 6 months since the first time we look at each other in the eyes, with a few skips on the heartbeat. The thing about relationship after a period of time, there isn't this fluttering thingy that i felt for the first time anymore.
As we get to know each other's behavior and lifestyle, everything became so stagnent. It isn't the i miss you, i love you kinda puppy-like love anymore, but rather, is a commitment that i have to face, to work out, to adjust, to compromise, to accomodate. So much so that at times, selfishly enough, I hope to go back to our first date again........... no feelings of commitment, enjoying every bit of it like a lil' gal....
But back to reality, I know that this is not gonna happen and never will..........................
I dun wanna grow up... i wanna go back to the lil' gal i was 10 years ago, where I have crushes, not having to worry about proj datelines, not having to feel the burden and commitment that the society is piling me on...
how i wish......................
~ting~
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