{PROLOGUE}

**dilys**

*loves
black.white.simplicity.being loved. sunset.stars.slacking.silver. blingbling.attitudes


*hates
confusion.alone.separation. sensibility.logic

{WISHLIST}

to find the one
to own my love
carefree
license
{FELLOWS}

kimmy
jinghui
minty
sherry
kristy
kelvin kho
angeline
sammy
joyce
deborah

{EXPRESS}

 
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
today as usual i was sleeping till late in the morning, came to tep ard 12+. anyway when i was on my way to the mrt station, saw an uncle who dropped his handkerchief, but i juz walked away as i was in a damn foul mood, damn, i feel so guilty now. at that point of time, he was like sweating profusely walking down the stairs, i guess he really do need his handkerchief so much so much...

i was juz in the train i was juz doin my norm routine, updating my planner. well, is his b.day tmr but dun think i'll b getting anything for him on his b.day. juz seemed so tired bout all the things that he have done, i noe that we shouldn't think bout the past, but scenario at the pub juz keep appearing in my head..y?? i dun wanna b hurt anymore, i dun wanna feel this way. i'm so sick!

well, reached sch n saw min n sherry on my way up the escalator, so juz went to smoke with them. min look so happy today.. haha... she made my day!!den went o mac n ... ... .. .. ..saw suban, muq n colin..den juz chilln slack with them, then went to the club room, den there was a big issue bout beckham coming to sch, den all the gals was like goin gaga over him.. haiz... well glad to say that i'm not 1 of them n all of them was like crowding outside the bpos room n outside the audi.. n i went to have lunch peacefully with kimmy.

oh ya, before i forgot to write in, when i was on the train, i saw an indian couple, n they received a fone call saying like somebody died or something, n the both of them was like tearing, den it struck me.. when someone close to our heart leave us, we cry.. but dwn the road 1 years time, will we cry the same as the day they left us? how does love function?? y? we may even forget bout the person so dear to us adt a long long time, den y do we still choose to love someone? wad good does it do for us? i realli dun understand. n at this point of time, i no longer think is essential to love someone.. mayb in the past.. but not anymore... i choose not to hurt myself.. to prick myself deep dwn in my heart anymore..

~ting~



6:57 AM

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